It’s 1:57 a.m. I can never seem to get to sleep at a decent hour lately. It’s March 22nd, three years ago on this day I met the love of my life, my son. He wasn’t born until 2:32 in the afternoon but I was already in labor at this hour. 22 hours I was up watching the clock counting the seconds go by with each contraction, breathing and resting in between for about a minute or two in between them. They seemed so close and relentless. At least thats what I remember, that clock, I watched it allll night. He didn’t want to come out on his own, I don’t think he was really ready yet… but he did and although it wasn’t part of the plan to have an emergency c section, I just wanted him to be okay, and he was perfect. He did have to spend two nights in the nicu for aspirating a few times which terrified me for about the first year of his life.
I can’t believe he’s 3 already, I miss every little stage before it’s even gone… I try to live in each moment with him and enjoy him at that moment… he has been a very good baby and toddler, terrible two’s? Sorry to say but not this kid, he has his moments but nothing extreme. He is super smart, from day one, he is always thinking and trying to figure it out, he takes in what I say and stores it in his head for later then brings it up randomly and surprises me. He is sweet and caring, he always wants to make us happy, never wants to make us mad or dissapointed. He has been an easy child so far (knock on wood) he listens to me and does what I say, he may need a little explanation but once he has it thats all he needs to move forward. His curious mind just has a million questions and I try to answer as many as I can. He can be bossy at times, I don’t know where he gets that from??? When he wants to do something a certain way he wont be happy if you do it first or wrong. He is already a master of knowing how to make me melt, how to charm people.
This year was the cutest, I can’t imagine it getting any cuter but I know he will. I heard it’s really year three to look out for, I don’t believe all the hype, you hear sooo many things from so many different people from the time your pregnant and so many of them are not true. Every child is unique and I try to let him be. I want him to be a kid, happy and worry free, although he does have a bit of a worry wart way about him… again- I don’t know where he got that from??? I was like that as a kid… maybe it’s part of being the oldest?
I love his little face, and every expression, it is unreal how much you can love your baby.
Come on, he is adorable… maybe I’m just being a mom… every mom thinks their kids are the cutest.
So far I feel that we have done a pretty good job, I think it will get harder as he gets older, I just want to raise him to be a kind hearted, strong individual, with morals and respect. I want him to be whatever he wants to be, I will support him and guide him in whatever he wants to do.
I love him so much, Happy Birthday to my baby boy, I was never the same after you were born, you make me a better person everyday. I cherish these days I get to stay home with you and take care of you and watch you grow before my eyes, it is truly the best time of my life. I am so proud of you and hope that you feel the love I have for you all the time. I promise to be here for you no matter what, my love is unconditional, there is nothing that could ever change that.
For Jacob, one day you’ll read this, here are some fun facts about you at this age….
Food: You Love breakfast just like mommy, eggs, french toast, pancakes, waffles, cereal, your favorites. Your order when we go out to eat is always “chicken nuggets, french fries, and bobeque sauce” in that order. You love cheese, bananas, and smoothies that I always sneak your veggies in too. You haven’t gotten use to ice cream yet, it’s too cold but I’m sure your going to love it soon. Since your learned how to eat you never liked to be dirty or sticky, you always have to have a napkin, when you eat.
Play: You still love cars, at the moment your playing with your trains more, you line em all up on your carpet that looks like a road. You like to build with your blocks, you make buildings and park your cars next to them. You love the park, climbing, sliding, not swinging so much. You love to do puzzles, it’s really amazing how fast you can do them! You like your leap pad and learning, you pick stuff up so fast. You love watching Thomas, Bob the Builder, and Umi Zumi.
Knowledge: You are a smarty pants, everyone always says boys develop slower than girls but not in your case, you have known all the colors, shapes, alphabet, for over a year, you practically told me you were ready to be potty trained, you can count to 20, spell your name, you know your birthday and the city and state you live in. You remember all the makes of your cars, You know which is a hummer, a V W, a lamborghini, and you have a ridiculous amount, it’s so cute. You know all your characters names, which train from Thomas is Travis, or Emily, or Diesel… they all look the same to me. Anything we teach you once you easily remember it. We just started a mommy and me class and I love to see you enjoying a school setting. Lately you love a book I got you for Christmas It’s a snoopy book called “You can be anything” and I will always drill that into you, and help you make your dreams come true.
Personality: You are almost always happy and sweet, you can be demanding and are getting used to sharing me with your sister, you are a good big brother you love locking her safety gate to make sure she doesn’t escape, when she cries you want to go get her from her bed. You guys are starting to play more, you get silly together and you love to tickle her and make each other laugh. In the morning when your in your chair eating and I bring her out from waking up you say “I want to touch her” and you just touch her foot and you say ” good morning little one”. When people talk to her you let them know she doesn’t know how to talk yet. You love your Nina who spoils you, and Onnaweese your auntie… you named your grandma all on your own: “Grandma Pat my Sweetheart” She can’t get enough of that. You randomly say the cutest things like “Mommy, I love spending time with you.” or “Mommy, I love snuggling in your bed with you.” Your too much! Last night you wanted me to show you how to go to bed by yourself so we tucked you in and you went to sleep, which isn’t normally how you fall asleep… I let you stay up with me and you usually fall asleep on the couch and I transfer you, or you will go to sleep with me…. (SHhhhhhhh) I figure you will only be this cute and cuddly for a short time and look, already your ready to go to sleep all on your own.
Since you could you have always had a habit of scratching your upper back, since you were a baby, and you still do it, your doing it here in this picture below…. we don’t know why but it’s just something you have always done… I wonder if you always will?