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Los Angeles Child Photographer | Three Years Old

It’s 1:57 a.m. I can never seem to get to sleep at a decent hour lately. It’s March 22nd, three years ago on this day I met the love of my life, my son. He wasn’t born until 2:32 in the afternoon but I was already in labor at this hour. 22 hours I was up watching the clock counting the seconds go by with each contraction, breathing and resting in between for about a minute or two in between them. They seemed so close and relentless. At least thats what I remember, that clock, I watched it allll night. He didn’t want to come out on his own, I don’t think he was really ready yet… but he did and although it wasn’t part of the plan to have an emergency c section, I just wanted him to be okay, and he was perfect. He did have to spend two nights in the nicu for aspirating a few times which terrified me for about the first year of his life.
I can’t believe he’s 3 already, I miss every little stage before it’s even gone… I try to live in each moment with him and enjoy him at that moment… he has been a very good baby and toddler, terrible two’s? Sorry to say but not this kid, he has his moments but nothing extreme. He is super smart, from day one, he is always thinking and trying to figure it out, he takes in what I say and stores it in his head for later then brings it up randomly and surprises me. He is sweet and caring, he always wants to make us happy, never wants to make us mad or dissapointed. He has been an easy child so far (knock on wood) he listens to me and does what I say, he may need a little explanation but once he has it thats all he needs to move forward. His curious mind just has a million questions and I try to answer as many as I can. He can be bossy at times, I don’t know where he gets that from??? When he wants to do something a certain way he wont be happy if you do it first or wrong. He is already a master of knowing how to make me melt, how to charm people.
This year was the cutest, I can’t imagine it getting any cuter but I know he will. I heard it’s really year three to look out for, I don’t believe all the hype, you hear sooo many things from so many different people from the time your pregnant and so many of them are not true. Every child is unique and I try to let him be. I want him to be a kid, happy and worry free, although he does have a bit of a worry wart way about him… again- I don’t know where he got that from??? I was like that as a kid… maybe it’s part of being the oldest?
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I love his little face, and every expression, it is unreal how much you can love your baby.
Come on, he is adorable… maybe I’m just being a mom… every mom thinks their kids are the cutest.
So far I feel that we have done a pretty good job, I think it will get harder as he gets older, I just want to raise him to be a kind hearted, strong individual, with morals and respect. I want him to be whatever he wants to be, I will support him and guide him in whatever he wants to do.
I love him so much, Happy Birthday to my baby boy, I was never the same after you were born, you make me a better person everyday. I cherish these days I get to stay home with you and take care of you and watch you grow before my eyes, it is truly the best time of my life. I am so proud of you and hope that you feel the love I have for you all the time. I promise to be here for you no matter what, my love is unconditional, there is nothing that could ever change that.
2014-03-22_0010.jpgFor Jacob, one day you’ll read this, here are some fun facts about you at this age….

Food: You Love breakfast just like mommy, eggs, french toast, pancakes, waffles, cereal, your favorites.  Your order when we go out to eat is always “chicken nuggets, french fries, and bobeque sauce” in that order.  You love cheese, bananas, and smoothies that I always sneak your veggies in too.  You haven’t gotten use to ice cream yet, it’s too cold but I’m sure your going to love it soon.  Since your learned how to eat you never liked to be dirty or sticky, you always have to have a napkin, when you eat.

Play: You still love cars, at the moment your playing with your trains more, you line em all up on your carpet that looks like a road.  You like to build with your blocks, you make buildings and park your cars next to them.  You love the park, climbing, sliding, not swinging so much.  You love to do puzzles, it’s really amazing how fast you can do them!  You like your leap pad and learning, you pick stuff up so fast.  You love watching Thomas, Bob the Builder, and Umi Zumi.

Knowledge: You are a smarty pants, everyone always says boys develop slower than girls but not in your case, you have known all the colors, shapes, alphabet, for over a year, you practically told me you were ready to be potty trained, you can count to 20, spell your name, you know your birthday and the city and state you live in.  You remember all the makes of your cars, You know which is a hummer, a V W, a lamborghini, and you have a ridiculous amount, it’s so cute.  You know all your characters names, which train from Thomas is Travis, or Emily, or Diesel… they all look the same to me.  Anything we teach you once you easily remember it.  We just started a mommy and me class and I love to see you enjoying a school setting.  Lately you love a book I got you for Christmas It’s a snoopy book called “You can be anything”  and I will always drill that into you, and help you make your dreams come true.

Personality: You are almost always happy and sweet, you can be demanding and are getting used to sharing me with your sister, you are a good big brother  you love locking her safety gate to make sure she doesn’t escape, when she cries you want to go get her from her bed.  You guys are starting to play more, you get silly together and you love to tickle her and make each other laugh.  In the morning when your in your chair eating and I bring her out from waking up you say “I want to touch her” and you just touch her foot and you say ” good morning little one”.  When people talk to her you let them know she doesn’t know how to talk yet.  You love your Nina who spoils you, and Onnaweese your auntie… you named your grandma all on your own: “Grandma Pat my Sweetheart” She can’t get enough of that.  You randomly say the cutest things like “Mommy, I love spending time with you.” or  “Mommy, I love snuggling in your bed with you.”  Your too much! Last night you wanted me to show you how to go to bed by yourself so we tucked you in and you went to sleep, which isn’t normally how you fall asleep… I let you stay up with me and you usually fall asleep on the couch and I transfer you, or you will go to sleep with me…. (SHhhhhhhh) I figure you will only be this cute and cuddly for a short time and look, already your ready to go to sleep all on your own.

Since you could you have always had a habit of scratching your upper back, since you were a baby, and you still do it, your doing it here in this picture below…. we don’t know why but it’s just something you have always done… I wonder if you always will?

For all the Mommies | Orange County CA Maternity Photographer

In honor of reaching over 400 likes on facebook, I would like to spread the love and give some back! I would like to gift a session to a mommy!  I loved being pregnant and so maybe if I photograph a pregnant woman or a brand new baby I will get my fix… much easier this way.

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Maternity, Birth, or Newborn Session!

So… do you know someone who is nearing the end of her pregnancy?  I would like to extend this offer to all the mommas with big bellies out there, Due in April, May, June, or July… You need to have at least a bump.  I will gift a free session and some digital files of the session to one lucky mommy!

OR this could be used for BIRTH photos, yes I said BIRTH photos, as in I want to be there in your hospital room while you push your baby out into the world!  I have been really wanting to do this, I did have a chance to but had a bit of a cold and couldn’t risk it, I would never want anyone with even a sniffle near my newborn baby.

I know some people may think it’s unusual but I WISH I would have had my baby girls VBAC delivery captured by someone other than my husband, no offense to him, while he was experiencing the birth of his child as well, he did a great job but someone who really knows photography and birth could have taken the photos to the next level.  It was an amazing birth that I was really proud of. Every birth is special and while everyone has grandma there with the camera, why not be sure your going to have that happiest moment of your life photographed beautifully.  Not having all your “business” documented in video by grandma if you know what I mean… (thanks mom)  Of course I know what it’s like and would be like a fly on the wall, there at the end when the action happens and for the first moments of babies life out of the womb meeting mom and dad for the first time.  It is such a beautiful amazing time, truly like nothing else.

OR… If your new baby will be born after March we can photograph your newborn bundle of joy!

Here’s the deal:

Make sure you LIKE my Facebook page…

COMMENT on the post and SHARE the Facebook post…

Easy as 123- LIKE, COMMENT, SHARE.

I will end it on my baby girls BIRTH day… March 29th.  I think it’s the fact that she is turning One that I am feeling like celebrating mothers and births and babies!  I can’t believe it’s been a year, she is our little Pincess!! Truly the sweetest baby ever that sleeps and sleeps and sleeps, always happy, what more could I ask for?

Here she is our lil pincess Maya @ 7 days new…

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The Working Woman | Stay at home Mom

So a very followed photog on FB posted an article that was entitled “I look down on young women with kids and husbands and I’m not sorry” Whoa!  She had a ton of comments, most were from people who strongly disagreed.  My first thought after reading the article was that it was a little outrageous and was meant just to get a rise out of people.  Then I went on to read the comments in the blog and just commented that I loved how one person said, “I see a lot of cats in this womans future” LOL.  As more people posted and I read their stories, I started to think about how this relates to me, how I have experienced both sides, and as I went to write my own comment it got too long….

Most women are naturally nurturers, we give life, and we love and nurture and to most it comes naturally, and most have a natural desire to do it, we can’t help it, it’s there inside of us, society or not, it is just in us.

I was in no hurry to marry and have kids, I grew up the oldest of 5 in a house, I knew it was hard, so we waited… I got asked a million times when are you going to get married, then, when are you going to have a baby, then, when are you going to have another…. I know it’s annoying.  I had landed a job I loved that didn’t feel like work, I loved my boss, and co workers, it was perfect all I wanted was to get paid to do something I loved to do and I had it.

Baby #2 came and I decided to stay home with my children, She is 10 months and my son is 2 years and 10 months.  I have been on both sides and I have mixed feelings, I miss working everyday and that fulfillment and sense of achievement you get at work, I miss the income and the independence I had, I miss the feeling of accomplishment.  I still get all those feelings they just come from a different place.  I am fulfilled knowing my kids have their mom all day everyday, I feel accomplished when I see my son is picking up all that I am trying to show him, he is super smart.  I know I am where I am supposed to be when he says something for the first time or makes me crack up laughing, or when we have little conversations, when my daughter doesn’t have to cry longer than I want her to, when she eats what I want her to the way I want her to, she gets the interaction and time with me I want her to have.  I wouldnt have it any other way, I would be heartbroken to drop off my kids at a daycare at 7 a.m., I am just saying for ME… I gave up the career (for now) while they are babies, to have them wake up and see their mother, to have me love them and take care of them allll day, teach them, talk to them, and feed them, I want it to be me. I think it is important that it be me, and I think  it will make a big difference that it was me.  Being that this is financially even possible for us makes it a no brainer, I realize many woman wish they could stay home with their kids, I consider myself very lucky to be able to and so I take advantage of being able to.

I do the mind numbing housework now, If I was working we could probably pay someone to do it but it is now part of my job description.  Let me tell you going to the job I had was like a vacation compared to caring for my kids and home full time, don’t get it twisted, it is work. Not everyone is cut out for it, I am not the best at it but I try, my kids are my priority.  For a while I did both with one child and I would literally feel a bit guilty that I was at work “relaxing”, and “playing”… Yes I loved what I did and loved not doing all the housework and making things happen out in the world, but I love my kids more, nothing can compare to the countless moments I am able to witness being here with them, having this time with them is priceless, no dream job, no income could make me miss this… to some it seems so boring, so meaningless, so torturous, or so easy… but going back to my first statement – I think people that see it that way are just not natural nurturers, they probably don’t have kids, and probably shouldn’t because they don’t have that same desire,  and they are meant to be great at other things.  Not ALL women are made to do the same thing.  Thats great for them, some women do it all and while that is another topic all together, I say more power to them, I respect all women who go after what they want and make it happen, lIVE your life and do what makes YOU happy.

It isn’t so black and white though, I think times are changing and lots of women wait to have babies, stay at home moms get praised and get looked down on, so does the working mom… so does the woman who chooses not to have children,  we are lucky to have so many choices, can’t make everyone happy… good thing we get to do what makes US happy.  However if we all started to think like the woman who wrote that article… stop having babies, and be career women… then what?  You have your work and your money and your things, and the big, beautiful, well kept (by a housekeeper) , quiet, still, house… so quiet that in the silence you might realize that there must be more to life than that.  There is a reason why we celebrate marriage and babies coming – LIFE is about LOVE and those things usually help make that happen.  Yes, education and promotions are to be applauded, my family made a big deal for us when we graduated from college, as they should… but those accomplishments don’t really bring you more LOVE they bring you knowledege, status, money, and things… which are amazing and nice to have… but we celebrate the things that bring our lives more love and joy.  Some people think that love and joy come from things and power but even rich and powerful people know to celebrate marriage and children because when it comes down to it, all we have are our loved ones and life is about loving and enjoying eachother, and being a good person, helping others out.  In the end I don’t think anyone is thinking about their careers, or their bank accounts.

So I was a working woman had the full time, commute, meetings, deadlines, the boss, the hustle….and now I am a working woman, still a full time, even more of a full time, it’s 24/7.  it’s just a different job, there are deadlines all day, you are on a tight schedule and nothing can be put off until tomorrow with kids, it doesn’t matter if you just want to go home for the day, you can’t call in sick.  They depend on you. There is no paycheck.   It’s just a different job, the most important one I will ever have, I only get one shot at it, I chose it and while I can’t make everyone else happy, I am happy and my children are happy and that is what matters to me.

So with that, since this is my photo blog… here is a photo of me with my baby girl when she was 7 days old.

mother and her newborn

mother and her newborn

7 months!

This photo was taken a few weeks ago, My Jacob at 6+ months laying next to his newborn onesie :0 I can’t believe how seriously fast he has grown, it’s amazing, they grow everyday, his nails grow everyday, from one day to the next his pants are short or onesies are snug.  And now in two days he will be 7 months! I just cleaned up his room and had to make room for clothes he’s now wearing, I put away all of his 6 month outfits, It makes me sad but of course I’m happy he’s growing so fast, I guess that just comes from knowing how fast he will grow up.  Toys as well are going to have to transition, like his activity play mat, now he roles and roles and spuirms like a little worm everywhere, I know in a few weeks he will start to crawl, that is going to be interesting! I am in no hurry for him to crawl 🙂  He already keeps me busy I can’t imagine when he’s crawling, we are getting a walker this weekend!

As you can see I was pushing it with the pants he’s wearing in this pic… haha- I put them in the storage box today!  That rubbermaid container is full now btw :0  He is so long and skinny- Jason and I both have long legs so we knew he would too.  I just took this one day when I was going to put stuff in that box, I pulled this out and had to take a picture right then- so this is my boy in his mis matched lounge wear 🙂

I’m pretty sure he wore this in his first few days of life… So cute.